Bonga

I'm a 30 year old man but get over emotional at time and cry a lot. Is there anything wrong with me?

I'm not taking my meds anymore. I hated them from day 1. I think I'm managing okay...some days are tougher than others, but, I'm keeping up. My hope is that one day I will be completely alright an not even have to think of the meds.

I am 30 years old and keep failing in my career. I make two steps forward and then a major setback makes me start all over. I have worked hard to get here but sometimes when I see my peers who have the things I have worked for for so long I get so bitter and angry. Some of them havent put in as much effort as i have and its so discouraging. Should I continue pursuing my dreams? Do dreams come true? or is it time to give up, settle for less and wait for the day my life will end? What is the point of trying if you keep falling down every time? Its so frustrating.

I just saw this on Instagram and I' m here to help and share in whichever way I can 

I run a page of Instagram called I Care Kenya seeking to raise awareness on mental health in Kenya, share resources on where to seek help and support when dealing with mental illness. The page is still new but feel free to reach out there, should you need help. 

I may be wrong to speak about this issue but I think most people are having an issue with it more often than not... Its the story about once sexuality. We have been brought up in a society where we have been taught anything that is not the norm is either evil or agains all faith, But do people realize that we do not choose to be different in our sexuality. We do not wake up in the morning to choose to be this or that way but its an in thing born in us??

May people are silently resolving into alcohol and drugs just to get through their day in peace. And if you are lucky, the next challenge is to face yet another day. Being Gay,Bi,Transgender,Lesbian in this country is one of the worst thing anyone could ever imagine. It comes from people calling you very hurtful names once they find your sexual preference is in any of the categories. Constant hate n harastment but people who cause these constant harrasment know that today it may be me but tomorrow it may be your daughter or son, would you call them those hurtful names that you call random strangers that are not related to you??

So I might have depression, or else i'm just a stupid teenager. Once I talked to a counsellor privately, she gave me her number, told me to call her and maybe she could help me somehow, but I'm so afraid to call her because I'm afraid that starting all this would break apart my family. I'm from a very religious family, everyone thinks that we are and expects us to be happy, but I feel like I'm breaking apart. If I told my parents how I really felt, I feel like they would really judge me, and our relationship would change. I feel like starting all this counselling shit would uncover a darker side of me that might be addicted to porn, a side of me that has considered suicide. A side of me that Ive never revealed to anyone. What would my siblings who look up to me think? I feel like every friend I have is fake, like I cant trust them, but I really need someone to confide in. I'm sad, I've lost interest in practically everything, and school seriously kills every part of me, it weighs me down so much that I cut myself. I have body image issues, so much that I have self diagnosed bulimia. I look for love in all the wrong places, even on the internet where I could seriously be predated on. I want to die. I want everything to stop.

I have feelings of depression that come and go, I'm no longer excited about doing anything. I'd rather stay indoors than go out because I don't like being around many people. I feel unappreciated by friends and family. I always come through for them but coming through for me seems like an uphill task. I don't get why I'm always being put last when I put others first, why im always rejected. I dont think I have any real friends. I've tried to tell people how I feel but some take it like it's a joke. Like how can you not want to be around people yet you have a job? My energy is getting less and less each day and some days I worry that I won't have the will to wake up and face life. 

I have anxiety issues. I get attacks every now and then and I'm overwhelmed at work. I really want to quit coz my job doesn't make me happy anymore. All ir does is drain me. But I can't quit coz I need the money to get by.