I lost the confidence to do the things I love.... I feel judged by my colleagues and I hate that so much so I end up hating them.... I am happy we are working from home so I do not have to see their faces... I don't care much about them either.

I would love to change jobs and start afresh... I made my mistakes, learnt from them and I know I can be better.

I wish though I had a big sister to talk to, to guide me, to counsel me with love..... I would have made better choices.... I wish I had known that Trusting God Angela Knowing him was the only sure way to succeed in this life.

Besides knowing that... I don't know where my life is headed.... am lost in this world living a day at a time.

I don't even fear death no more... I am ready to go to my Father in Heaven.... coz am not sure how to navigate this earth.