Am a 35 y.o. basically 36 yrs old (at year end) , I even feel irresponsible writing this, sharing what to many should not be problems at this age .

I need honest advise. I'll make it short.

Am an extrovert, the last born girl, I have 2 sis and 1 bro;am fun loving, sort of-carefree , born-to-be happy person; I kinda follow after my dad. Anyway, God also blessed me with a good mind, good grades and a good job; basically I have not struggled to get work to date despite my "carefree ' nature.

My elder sister has crucified me for this time and expressed this time and time again even to my mother.

My first relationship was a disaster, it damaged me emotionally and psychologically; I didn't talk to anyone after. My family suffered,....????????

Am trying to settle down and resolve things with my siblings, am struggling. I cry , I resort to alcohol which ofcourse doesn't help.....am literally pulling on threads now.

My options, including lead a good successful life include getting married and starting a family .......are all time bound.