got me a new obession

i ready to be disappointed again

I am suffering from severe stress due to being single. I don't know how to find a partner. I've lost weight, lost my appetite and everyday is a struggle with constant sadness. I just turned 30. I am afraid I will slip into depression.

My best friend always gets close to the people I really like or date/dated. He always gets a way to communicate with them like on social media and such. The people I like, date or dates also get close to him. I, on the other hand, never get close to his ex's or the people he likes coz I find it crossing the boundaries. His behaviour makes me feel bad and over think what they say or do behind my back. I have told him how I feel before and he is well aware. Is this feeling normal? Am I over reacting? How do I deal with this? I don't want to loose the friendship but his behaviour sometimes makes me mad at him coz it's a repeat pattern for a long time.

I long for sexual intimacy. Am I cheap if I have sex with a man early without knowing him well?Do I first have to wait to know someone and build a relationship?

If a man says no when I ask for sex does it mean he isn't attracted to me?

I'm 35 single, never been in relationship. I used to think success money connections would attract everything I've ever wanted like a loving wife and family. But without self love, self esteem, courage, high sense of self worth or simply just loving oneself inspite of everything going on the world, i'll never achieve it. It's funny that everything i want is just a simple decision and will to do it. But without the action all hope is lost. The mind can be a prison. I just hope I'll overcome my limiting beliefs and inactions on the things I simply truly want. How do I stop the negative narratives and unfounded beliefs that I'll never be good enough or worthy of this simple task. If love is truly a verb then I think I'm fucked.

About toxic colleagues. Why is it a problem when colleagues see you thriving and always want to bring you down. I am 29 , in senior management and a 55 year old colleague just makes my life a living hell. He’s too toxic but I will not quit.

how does one let go or find closure getting ghosted or him pulling away?Its really affecting me emotionally and feeling so drained!!Its my first time getting ghosted at 25yrs not fun at all

I' really disturbed idk what to do I just feel like crying a lot and possibly hurting myself but I can't