Bonga

I dont understand why i am sad n view my life as soo dull when literaaly everything is going so well... everything happening is good but i still feel sad...incomplete...i laugh when what i want to do is cry... i speak when all i wanna do is locked my self up somewhere n just be sad


Hi i have bipolar i understand what many been going through nothing hurt like family and friends when they label you mad its break my heart when a friend or family will call for help only to be told i have a manic surely everyone needs help but the world is just cruel when they know you have a mental challege

im a 24 year old lady. every morning i wake up sad and depreswed i wish i wasnt alive. sometimes i wish i could just walk infront of a vehicle and just die but am afraid of breaking my single mum's heart. i have always been doing good in school but sadly this doesnt reflect with what am earning. am even scared of meeting my classmates. i feel like i have let my family down.. i feel purposelesss. getting from one job to another. i have no boyfriend.  i have low self esteem. i have so much anger and bitterness towards life and men after bad experiences and abuse.  sometimes i remember people's comments about me and it really hurts. there is absolutely nothing i look forward to. i just want it all to end. im just sad nothing exites me anymore. i wish i could just sleep and never wake up.

im a 24 year old lady. every morning i wake up sad and depreswed i wish i wasnt alive. sometimes i wish i could just walk infront of a vehicle and just die but am afraid of breaking my single mum's heart. i have always been doing good in school but sadly this doesnt reflect with what am earning. am even scared of meeting my classmates. i feel like i have let my family down.. i feel purposelesss. getting from one job to another. i have no boyfriend.  i have low self esteem. i have so much anger and bitterness towards life and men after bad experiences and abuse.  sometimes i remember people's comments about me and it really hurts. there is absolutely nothing i look forward to. i just want it all to end. im just sad nothing exites me anymore. i wish i could just sleep and never wake up.

My entire family and anyone I have ever called a friend forgot my birthday. I have crippling social anxiety and sometimes I don't want to be here anymore.

I HATE GOD, I HATE THE DEVIL ,   This world makes no sense,,,,, ITS DUMB just like adam,, I hope Jesus comes soon,,,,  i think it would be really suprising to see a dead man come back to life,,,, i hope he come's back with mac miller ,,,, R.I.P MAC ,,,, his music is heaven to me when am feeling low,,,, i hate my mum sometimes lowkey  don.t cause you know she's fam,,,,,  Man this site's better than facebook,,, zuckerberg is really rich,,, he doesn't look like a human being though but his white they look funny ,,, some of em ,,,  anyway his Rich so rich don't know what you live for when your that rich and have no being massive family to give money to,,his squad must have already discovered some next level tech that they keep locked up...   GOODevening/night,,,,,,....



                                                                                             I'M SCHIZOPHRENIC,,,  

I am a sad person. It's hard to believe how many times i have said i want to die, i dont want to be here anymore. I can't live like this anymore. I hate school. I only have fake friends. I'm such a fake person...I lie, i cheat, i hurt people, but the funny thing is everytime i do one of those things, i become more numb to the fact that they're wrong. I cut again a few weeks ago, after so long, i finally caved into the urge. I wanted to die. I wanted dissapear. It seems as if i try so hard, but nothing is ever good enough. My only faily didnt even notice my eating disorder. Im never happy. Why am i never happy? Im so lost and honestly dont think ill ever find the way back to happiness. I liked to say im okay, but im not. Oh how i pray to God to heal me, to take this pain away from me, but i still feel nothing. See depression isnt just feeling sad all the time, but its not being motivated to do all the things you once loved so much. Im so stressed out with  applying to colleges. Im so scared i wont be accepted by the college i want to go to .

I don't have friends. I don't know how to make them. I am by nature an introvert and prefer to be buried in books or to stay alone. This disturbs my family members alot since most are extroverted and outgoing. I feel out of place, like I am where I am not supposed to be. I feel as though I have something broken in me. Why am i not like everyone else, more social, more talkative? I have gotten used to being viewed at as the awkward one and odd one out that i do not put effort into meeting new people. Actually I don't like meeting new people.

I  am 19 and always feel like my friends  kind  of take adavantange of  me, they treat me like their second option and that has really affected how i view and see other people because am not really sure how they will treat  me and also its reallly had for me to   make new freiend because am so much hurt  and betrayed  it  feels like i just dn''t need anyone  anymore.