Bonga

I run a page of Instagram called I Care Kenya seeking to raise awareness on mental health in Kenya, share resources on where to seek help and support when dealing with mental illness. The page is still new but feel free to reach out there, should you need help. 

I may be wrong to speak about this issue but I think most people are having an issue with it more often than not... Its the story about once sexuality. We have been brought up in a society where we have been taught anything that is not the norm is either evil or agains all faith, But do people realize that we do not choose to be different in our sexuality. We do not wake up in the morning to choose to be this or that way but its an in thing born in us??

May people are silently resolving into alcohol and drugs just to get through their day in peace. And if you are lucky, the next challenge is to face yet another day. Being Gay,Bi,Transgender,Lesbian in this country is one of the worst thing anyone could ever imagine. It comes from people calling you very hurtful names once they find your sexual preference is in any of the categories. Constant hate n harastment but people who cause these constant harrasment know that today it may be me but tomorrow it may be your daughter or son, would you call them those hurtful names that you call random strangers that are not related to you??

So I might have depression, or else i'm just a stupid teenager. Once I talked to a counsellor privately, she gave me her number, told me to call her and maybe she could help me somehow, but I'm so afraid to call her because I'm afraid that starting all this would break apart my family. I'm from a very religious family, everyone thinks that we are and expects us to be happy, but I feel like I'm breaking apart. If I told my parents how I really felt, I feel like they would really judge me, and our relationship would change. I feel like starting all this counselling shit would uncover a darker side of me that might be addicted to porn, a side of me that has considered suicide. A side of me that Ive never revealed to anyone. What would my siblings who look up to me think? I feel like every friend I have is fake, like I cant trust them, but I really need someone to confide in. I'm sad, I've lost interest in practically everything, and school seriously kills every part of me, it weighs me down so much that I cut myself. I have body image issues, so much that I have self diagnosed bulimia. I look for love in all the wrong places, even on the internet where I could seriously be predated on. I want to die. I want everything to stop.

I have feelings of depression that come and go, I'm no longer excited about doing anything. I'd rather stay indoors than go out because I don't like being around many people. I feel unappreciated by friends and family. I always come through for them but coming through for me seems like an uphill task. I don't get why I'm always being put last when I put others first, why im always rejected. I dont think I have any real friends. I've tried to tell people how I feel but some take it like it's a joke. Like how can you not want to be around people yet you have a job? My energy is getting less and less each day and some days I worry that I won't have the will to wake up and face life. 

I have anxiety issues. I get attacks every now and then and I'm overwhelmed at work. I really want to quit coz my job doesn't make me happy anymore. All ir does is drain me. But I can't quit coz I need the money to get by. 

I lost my mentor, then my father, and then my better half, year after year after year. Turning 30 next week and I feel drained and broken in so many ways. Career wise, I feel like miles behind. Just wish I was 18 all over again, would have made better choices.

Ever felt like you're growing too fast and life is just hitting a little too fast and the world just doesn't want to acknowledge that wwhat you're going through is an actual problem? You just don't know what to do and it's depressing  coz you need to know you need to be in control 

I feel like I over do things but still feel like I am never enough for anyone. Lately this has been eating me up, making feel like I'm shit and that I don't deserve anything. I have been feeling like I am such a failure, even when my business is good and I'm even closing grand deals. Heck at 26 in even starting to secure my own beach house but no! I feel like literally everyone is better than me! I want out!

 

I hate being JUST average! I hate being that girl people assume all is well with her. I hate being me right now.

Im a eighteen  year old just fresh from high school. I struggled with the addiction of watching explicit content(porn and other wierd stuff that i consider better keeping to myself) on the internet and have just recently started recovering from it though not fully.I live a life of constant fear of a separation of my parents whiich looks bound to happen since for the past few years they have not been at peace with each other.This has resulted to me living a life of depression since most of the friends i completed high school with seem to be having the best life out there while i stay locked up in the house from morning till evening.I have always wanted to make friends who genuinely understand me but the problem is I suck at socializing with peapole and have been known to be an introvert to the blood.Sometimes i just get the urge of running away from home so i can start a new life but i know very well that is impossible 

I feel like im living through hell at the moment.Someone PLEASE help me find a solution that can turn my life around