Bonga

I don't wanna derail the 3weeks progress I have made so far in my cold turkey strategy to quit smoking but daaamn, I'm tempted. I hope I don't succumb to the evil thoughts in my mind right now. The peddler is just three minutes away and I don't know what to do to stop the thoughts. I had a shit day and there aren't a lot of things to distract me. I just want to remind myself how shit I feel the morning after, hoping its enough to stop me from getting out of this house. There are two voices in my head and I hope the right one wins the fight. It's hard people. Good evening.

I a guy and masturbate a lot. Super excessively. I've tried to stop but I always find myself relapsing by the end of the day. It's like a drug I can't do without any longer. Am I the only one like this? 

I'm studying two courses at once and its quite tiring and overwhelming, I get very anxious ,nervous and headaches .whenever I tell my mum she's like you must do this and I can handle it since I'm young but I'm just drained and exhausted,sometimes I cry because I'm trying to understand things but I just can't and It makes me frustrated and stressed

Right now I just feel so overwhelmed. Its not like I've done the worst thing u can think of like broken my dad's TV screen, pregnancy stis or anything. But I've cooked the dog's food wrong n it didn't cook n its two days overdue. I just feel so surrounded. I can't even get time to work on my design career. Living with my folks n my Little One n all the house work. I just feel like the other side is calling me n I'm so scared!

Is there any place in Nairobi that offers group therapy?

Hey, anybody who has been trying to stop smoking weed unsuccessfully like I do ? I've read that in order for me to get thru with this, it's important to have an accountability partner to help you through the journey. Well, since I didn't have one, I'm looking for guys with the same problem as me, tulink at least tupeane motivation ya kuquit !!...Please let's nduthis together. If willing, please comment..

Mine is on relationships and the life in it

I'm in early 30s and like most of my close friends are either dating, in relationship, in a relationship with a baby, engaged, married or married with kids. I'm in my early 30s. On the other hand have been rejected like 90% of the times. The longest I have been in a relationship is like 4 months. My most recent date was fun to start with. We met online, chat for a couple of weeks then had a 1st date. It was terrific.

After a couple of days after started going quiet. On and off responses. Then the calls went quiet until finally it got to blue ticks and voice mail cues. I don't know if I've been dumped or what's happening?

Anyway, it's getting tougher for me to date now. I'm even thinking like maybe I'm not cut out for this coz the streak of loses is too much!

Conversations with my peers are now getting more awkward like they could be talking about parenting or building a bigger home for their family or insurance, kids school fees, best options for soko......Yani hakuna hata place naweza kuchangia!? Forging new friendships in this day and age is also not easy; everyone is busy with something......argh!

Is it just me going through all these thoughts ama? What to do?

I think of myself as this useless dude...nothing to offer in life