I have a problem I am in my early 30s I don't know my Father but I believe he is somewhere.

I grew up with a step-dad, whom we never had a good relationship and sadly he passed away not so long ago.

My issues have been piling up since I was 6 years old, but they got out of control when I was finishing my university cause I made my plans clear but no one could understand me or let me follow my plans or desires.

The differences made hard for me to settle and look for a job or proper hustle since I have serious periods of stress and depression.

Right now I differ a lot with people who seem to be judging me that I am not financially stable including my mom.

I have kids with different ladies even though we don't have such serious issues with the mums we might not solve issues but I love the babies even though it hurts me that I am not in a position to provide for them as much as I'd love to.

I really don't know how to explain to mum that I really need to fix issues from my past in order to be able to fix my present and future.