at this moment it seems like the light is fading as you are being weighted down and unable to breathe with every moment. some solutions begin by trying to see the light that hits you everyday when you do get out of bed and trying to believe that things can get better. from there you can then begin trying to breathe more easily and reducing the weight pulling you down. the important thing is to try and remember that it takes time and patience.
Its all part of the growth process..Its a gift to be alive..Live a life with no regrets,no takebacks...You are in control You are the machine You are the Alien and most important of all you are God!!!