I want to die??
I don't know what makes you feel like that, but I will encourage you to talk to a professional about it. I've had those feelings before. In fact I feel like that right now. But one thing someone said to me is that when I get these feelings, I need to make sure that I'm not alone. Also, identify why you feel like that so you can find a way to deal. Talk to someone. It helps a lot.
No...Life is beautiful. Try n see the beauty around you..A day at a time..