I have feelings of depression that come and go, I'm no longer excited about doing anything. I'd rather stay indoors than go out because I don't like being around many people. I feel unappreciated by friends and family. I always come through for them but coming through for me seems like an uphill task. I don't get why I'm always being put last when I put others first, why im always rejected. I dont think I have any real friends. I've tried to tell people how I feel but some take it like it's a joke. Like how can you not want to be around people yet you have a job? My energy is getting less and less each day and some days I worry that I won't have the will to wake up and face life.
I fully understand that the feeling of rejection is real.im rallyy sorry if you feel your family isnt recognising your effort but that shouldnt bother you deeply.one day they will see you succeed imensely and will want to be around you everytime just wait on it.as for friends just try choosing wisely who can be on your inner circle.trust me there are still many good souls in this world
Bro/sis, I know this is probably the worst advice you'd think of. But let me try. I suffered medication induced depression for 2 years. Then I discovered marijuana, sativa strain to be precise. Now I treat the world like my playground. I help when I feel like and I don't give a fuck what anybody feels. I speak my mind and act bold and confident. Try it.